Diet = DYING TO EAT!!
Why is it that I want to eat everything that I don’t even like because I’m on a diet?! Everything sounds good to me. Every-thing! For example, cheese cake. Yeah, I don’t like cheese cake. Too sweet. Not really my jam. I can maybe have a pinch of it, and that’s it. I’m not too big on sweets. I prefer salt over sugar. Thank God it’s not Butter Pecan, or Rocky Road in the freezer, I reckon I would have to start this diet all over again tomorrow. But see, that’s the thing. Why keep putting off what you can do today for tomorrow? That’s the mind set I always have these days. I’m so over being is inconsistent with myself. I’ve been four days strong now. And with each day it’s actually getting easier. I mean, next month will be one year that I haven’t eaten pork or beef. Which was not as hard as I thought it was going to be, but it wasn’t the easiest either. So many people would say to me, “I couldn’t do that. I love food too much.” That’s the one that really tripped me out, liiike, I guess I don’t like food. I just live off air. Oh, okay. Or this one would always make me chuckle, “I love steak too much.” It’s funny, because for people who say they know me, don’t. Cause those who REALLY know me, know, that steak and a nice ole juicy hamburger with extra cheese was my absolute jaaa-zaam! So, when I made the decision to no longer eat pork or beef in 2017, and so on, I thought I was lowkey going crazy. But, I did it because I said I would, and I knew I could, and I did it! Self-discipline is key! Consistency is major!
These days you hear more people saying they can’t, than a little bit! If you say something long enough, you’ll believe it. It’s almost like people don’t want to do anything these days if they ain’t getting paid to do it. I rather not allow money to be my motive. Ever. That’s another story, for another day though.
So, yeah. The only carbs I’ve been having is the croutons in my salad, and the bread I put my peanut butter on before and after I do my miles. I feel like it only really gets rough at night. The husbae and me binge watch a lot of T.V. shows on Netflix, and during the week we have our little T.V. shows we tune into, it’s like our little thing while we cuddle and spend time together. He’s always snacking on something that I don’t need, but usually want. I just guzzle down a bottle of ice cold water and call it a day, well, a night. That usual helps. I honestly don’t even think I’m actually hungry. But my mind always tries to temp me.
After all the water I drink during the day, and before bed, I know I’ll pay for it as soon as I get comfy cozy in bed at night. Ugh! It sucks so bad!
I chose this December Challenge for myself because a lot of times during the holidays I get waaay out of wack with my eating habits, and working out. I look up and I’ve easily gained 6-8 pounds! I set myself back so much, after the all the working out I did the previous months. The holiday done came and went, and I feel blah. Not this year! No ma’am! No more excuses! Holidays, no holidays, yesterdays, whatever. This is a life style. That’s like me saying I don’t eat beef or pork, but on Christmas I do. Wat? No! So, I work out hard core Monday-Friday, and Saturday-Sunday I just do ab workouts. I let the rest of my body rest to prepare for the upcoming week.
My body is on fire right now! But my body aching reminds me to keep going. I know, it sounds crazy. But you get what I’m saying.
I know I will be proud of the outward appearance of me working out and eating right, but I want to also build up my strength mentally, not just physically. I mean, you know that every attack starts in your mind, right?
A lot has happened in a short period of time, and things were moving so fast that, that I felt like I had lost pieces of me at some point. Now, finally, after a lot of praying, reading, listening, and writing of course, I feel like I’m level headed, I am thinking rational in the times where I am super emotional. You ever had a bad day, and felt like you had a bad life? Well, yeah. I’m back learning to be content when things aren’t exactly how I want them to be, because I know my greater is coming!
I am learning now, more than ever, that when you’re striving for more out of your life, dreaming of your wildest dreams, making them goals, and turning them into reality doesn’t make you comfortable, but instead very UNCOMFORTABLE! Some days the feeling of discomfort motivates you. Somedays, it discourages you. God is not going to make you comfortable because you beg and plead for something.
You ever wanted something so bad, and it just didn’t happen. Like, it seems to take forever. I have. Not being able to grasp something when and how you want it BLOWS! It really blows! I’ve questioned myself multiple times. Is this dream too out of reach for me? Could this goal become a reality? The road of distress to the things you want will only break you if you allow it too. It’s not what you go through, it’s how you feel about it! We always want to show people our victories. I mean, speaking for myself. I know it feels good to show and share the outcome of things. But the hell you go through trying to get through and to what you want and need should be admired more. We as people show the victory, but hide the defeat. For real, for real, if we want to show something, it should be the defeat we show. We question our own strengths when we see other people’s victories, not knowing their defeat. And to me, the strength is in the defeat. Who ever worked hard for something that was easy. Ya know!
When I walk my 6 to 7 miles, daily. I always pray, in between talking to Naomi until the breeze makes her doze off. I listen to my music, and I always, always hit up T.D. Jake, and Joyce Myers. I feed my mind words of wisdom and strength as I struggle to do what I need to do physically. I have great passion, but I know with that comes great pain. I want to do sooooo much! SO MUCH! But sometimes, I’m just like, “How?” I’ve looked to other people to keep me motivated, and I truly appreciate it. But not anymore. The same ways I encourage other people, clapping and cheering them on. I’m fitting to do the same for myself. Because truth be told, the only person who has been in my way is me.
So, yeah. While I was sitting here, not even hungry, but hungry. I decided to give you some motivation, while I’m sitting here motivating myself. Be proud of YOU, always! Stay focused. Stay looking straight ahead. Not to the left or right of you, and definitely not behind you. Because we ain’t going backward! Keep your eyes on YOUR prize, and take your time. Doing a lot doesn’t always mean you’re doing something. Trust the process. Trust His process. And just because you think, or feel that nothing is happening, doesn’t mean that nothing is happening. Be aware of the tricks that the enemy brings forth. He comes to KILL, STEAL, AND DESTROY!
Faith! Faith is the substance of things that you hope for, the evidence of things not seen. -Hebrews 11:1
Remember that…. Umm…K!
I’m Just Saying….