I Don’t Have A Title. (I guess this is the title.)

When your life becomes a movie, it’s like you almost don’t want to watch TV anymore.

Time goes by so fast. We say it all the time. I mean, when you think about it, it does. What’s the old saying? ‘Time waits for no one.’ Talk about time standing still in the most devastating moments, (I mean) seconds of your life.

Things happen so fast but can also stand still all at the same time. I know, I know. It doesn’t really make sense. But neither does life, whether we know the end results of it or not. The question will always remain, why? And even if we knew why, would it even change how we really felt. I would say, no.

Tragedy- a disastrous even.
Tragic- regrettably serious or unpleasant.
Detrimental- damaging.
Discomfort- uncomfortable or uneasy.
Denial- refusal to admit the truth or reality of something.
Distraught- agitated with doubt or mental conflict or pain.
Sad- affected with or expressive of grief or unhappiness.

Ugh. The list can go on. One day we all in some way or another, will feel these things, live these things, and it no matter how much you feel like you can prepare yourself for these things, you can’t. Life. Never, ever take the time for granted you spend with people. Value your friendships. Appreciate your people.

Honestly. This may be sad to say, but umm…I’ve never appreciated my husband more, until I saw a friend lose hers.

I fight back tears as I write this. My heart hurts. And I feel helpless because I can’t help. I cannot change what has been done so unexpectedly. Even if we knew it would happen, we would have been just as unprepared, and grief stricken.

March 14th, 2018 will be a day that I will never forget as long as I shall live.
I will forever remember the time, the weather, and the location I was at when I heard my friend, my sister, one of my loves ones tell me that we had lost and amazing person. A father. A husband. A brother. A son. A friend. A marine. (Jesus, please be a fence.)

Why? Why?

Day by day. By and by.

I don’t know. I just…. I just don’t know what to say.

I remember when me and my girl were talking about coming to California. We were so happy when we got orders to the west coast. All the plans that were made. We never thought that in less than six months of landing here we would have to comfort a friend in this manner.

I guess God wasn’t lying when He said that He laughs at our plans.

I am absolutely honored to have met such an amazing person. A genuine person. (Which is hard to find in the world these days.)

I wish I could have spent more time. I regret that I didn’t because I/we always just assume we have so much time.

My friend, bless her heart. I love her dearly. She has shown strength in a way that I never thought exist.

My heartaches for her. My heartaches for the children!
I don’t even know what to say ya’ll. I always blog when I feel happy, sad, mad, glad….whatever. But now, I, I just don’t know.

Take a lesson from the dead. Take heed of the living who have lost.

I’m Just Saying…

One thought on “I Don’t Have A Title. (I guess this is the title.)

  1. As I’m reading this I’m in tears, today as I walked to checked the mail I couldn’t help but to cry. I sat outside thinking why!! It’s just will never be the same to be outside watching the kids play.

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