Pregnancy is nooo joke! Not even a little bit. The beginning stages until the very end. And afterwards isn’t quit a breeze eitha. Eitha way it’s all so bittsersweet. You have this little human growing inside of you. Who you love already and you haven’t even met them yet. Amazing right? It still blows my mind how being pregnant can make your body change in so many different ways. Even the second time around I’m still like, ‘Wow.’ Or eitha I’m saying, ‘What in the world!’ with my eyes bulging out of my head with my mouth wide open.
This seond pregnancy has been extremely different from my first. They ain’t lie when they say, all pregnancies are different. I seriously thought I was going to die my first trimester! Like, man. And I don’t play about death so when I say I thought I was going to die, I mean that. I thought I was on my way up out of here Chile. I have never felt so sick and weak in my life. I’ve had the stomach flu, where I was on the toilet and bent ova the trash can. I have been so drunk I threw up in my car. (Yeah, I’ll save that story for a later date. Whew Chile.) I’ve been pregnant with ‘morning sickness’ and still nothing topped the feeling I had for 17 weeks straight with this here second pregnancy. I remember telling my doctor, “If I’m going to feel like this my whole pregnancy you’re gonna have to admit me. Go ahead and get me a room until after I have this baby, because I cannot do this.” And I meant that with everything in me. But around week 18 I was completely in the clear. I still didn’t ova do it though. Even though I was feeling better. I was still in fear of getting sick. But now, oh now I’ll eat your food and mines! And I don’t feel the least bit guilty or ashamed. Being able to eat is a blessing. Like, seriously. At one point I had lost so much weight if my nipple got hard I would’ve been tilting for sure.
So yeah, one thang that I saw change almost like instantly were my breast. Woo whew Chile! Let me tell you. I’m just like whoa. I have this big ole full size mirror in my bedroom (I love mirrors.) and sometimes I legit just stand in front of it like, how? My boobs are so big and my areoles are so black! I done gave up on the bras that I had before I got pregnant. Or should I say the bras done gave up on me. (Okay, that made me laugh out loud.)
I officially have the pregnancy nose. My husband stays with the jokes. (Rolls eyes.) Nah, it’s all love. He helps me roll out of bed. And I do mean roll, umkay. I pee every thirty minutes. Which is super annoying a night and while we’re out and about. I can’t stand public bathrooms. Like, I have a phobia with public restrooms. If I am not pregnant I will legit go all day without using the bathroom until I get back home. Then I go running in the house to the bathroom almost peeing on myself. It’s like the closer I get to the house my bladder knows or something. Weird. Maybe it’s a mental thing. I know that isn’t a good thing, but hey, that’s my truth.
I also feel like the back of my neck is also darker. Which really bothers me. It’s not like I shower and skip my neck, okay! I usually wear my hair half up, half down to conceal it some. And like the back of my legs right up under my butt cheeks are darker too.
With my first pregnancy I had carpal tunnel terrible! I was like what in the world does this have to do with being pregnant?! I had it at the end and the first month or two after I gave birth. I had wrist bracelets (Is that what you call them?) on both my wrists. I remember times when it was difficult for me to hold my daughter. She was only 5lbs, geesh. I pray to God that doesn’t happen again.
I can’t lie, I do enjoy being pregnant. I love to feel my child inside of me. I love how my husband seems to adore me just a little more when I’m pregnant. It’s super cute. And this go around is really special because my 3 year old is having the best time with her sister and she’s not even her yet. I’m so excited for her. My daughter and husband always fight ova my belly. Outside of the nausea and vomiting I pretty much can deal. Like, this here heart burn is a trip too. I am actually doing really good tonight though. But I still have my pack of mint gum in arms reach by the bed. I’m telling you chewing mint gum really works. This dog on sciatica nerve be kicking my butt too. But hey, I don’t feel like I’m going to throw up my large intestine, so. I’m telling you I know that throwing up is not the worse thang that can happen to you. But for me, its definitely top 5. If I want to get real technical maybe top 8. Just know its something I despise!
I thank God I wake up everyday feeling normal again. I was so sick for so long I didn’t even know what it was like to do the easiest tasks anymore. Everyday was a drag. All I could do was cry. And that would make me sick too. Chile. I was a complete mess down, bust down.
I’m almost at the end of the road. I’m excited as eva and nervous as hell. Regardless of all the thangs I’ve accomplished and all the thangs I’m going to accomplish. I promise for me, being a mommy is unquestionably the best ova all thangs.
I can’t wait to meet her.
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