It was brought to my attention yesterday when I literally got teary eyed listening to two people that I dearly care about suffer for many different reason, but one reason was being alone. My first love one broke my heart when they spoke on how they truely felt, deep down inside. Then later that night I spoke with another love one, and they told me how long they’ve been suffering, and my heart, my heart was so so so sad for them, both of them. I instantly texted two of my sistas Tasha, and Shonteesha, *i love yall* I knew! I KNEW! When I texted them they would be on it! I know them! And I know they prayed for my friends! I know they care because I care, but mostly they care because they know Jesus cares! And I know they prayed hard! This morning I even received a message from Tasha with a song she wanted me to send out, and I did, very beautiful by, Hezekiah Walker, Better.
So as the day went on, I wrote in my journal to God, as I do every morning and every night. I prayed, and started my morning, preparing for the rest of the day. And then I got on social media, *sigh* and my heart was broken all over again. A very close family friend, Antoniette, spoke on it this morning on a post she had posted on Instagram. She spoke about two encounters where she was told from a love one how unhappy and depressed they’ve been.
I honestly felt helpness as I set there with the phone in my hand, thinking, remembering what that felt like. And it really made me sad, because I know! I know! I know! I just can’t say it enough. I know how they feel. And it’s many people who feel just like that right now. And it’s like hell is caving in all around you! But I know the power in prayer and I told myself I’m not helpless, because I know God is real!!! I can now look back over my life and see those days! Those holidays when I was heart broken, and alone. Yes, my parents where there, they’re always there! *smile* But you know what I mean. And some people, don’t even have that, their parents! Their brother! There sister. As long as my parents are here, there will always be somewhere to go. But I will never leave my brother hanging out to dry! And I know I’m his right hand man! We got each other! No matter what! No matter what happens or how many times he may piss me off, or I may get on his nerves. I’m not leaving him alone! Some people are really, really alone! Now I look around and I have my own little family, my husband, my daughter. I’mmmmm the woman of the house *Queening* and I’mmmmmm cooking dinner and fixing plates! And thats how I know, I know!!!! I know it gets better, it does. It really really does!
The Holidays are very emotional times for people for many different reasons. BUT guard your heart. Guard your soul. Put on your armor! Don’t let the devil STEAL your joy! Whether it be a little bit or a lot. Don’t give in. Don’t tap out! Stand! And trust God! Cause He hears you! I promise you, He hears you! At one point in my life I was so unhappy I didn’t know what to do with myself! I knew for sure I had more bad days than better days at one point. And waking up was a struggle even the more because that meant I would have to face everything again today. But now look! I get up at 7 o’clock in the morning some days, most days. I drink my hot tea, take my vitamins, talk to Jesus and prepare for the day. I’m ready to get up, my body is tired cause Naomi keeps me moving, *my love bug* but my mind is rested. That is a VERY BIG difference by the way. None of those things are pure luck, *chuckles* my luck had ran out a long time ago at that point in my life, but God never did. I don’t have lucky days! I have BLESSED days! God always has a master plan, and it’s working for me. I am living proof that God knows and He will never leave you or for sake you! Even when you think He’s not there and you’ve had enough, He’s there. How do you think you’ve been surviving everything this long? Hold on. I’m sincerely praying for you. Anyone who is lonely and alone this holiday. Anyone who is broken hearted and in great grief this Thanksgiving and Christmas Holiday, I’m praying for you.
My message right now is to anyone who can reach out, reach out to people and love one another this holiday. Invite family members over! Tell ya friends to come on over too. Stop being selfish, stop being stuck up and take ya supposedly Christian self, or “I’m a good person self” in that kitchen and cook, be merry, -and enjoy one another. Welcome people in, take people in. Don’t be stingy with the things that God is allowing to move in your life! Reach out to those people who should love and stop being angry and bitter. Kill all that noise! Don’t nobody want to hear it! Ok! Everyone sees you, they know you’re there! Don’t let people be alone for the holidays if you can really really help it. For most people it honestly doesn’t even take much. For most people like myself, I’m excited about a lot of things this thanksgiving. I’m also very thankful too. But I’d be lying if I said the food part doesn’t make ms happy! we are Just the thought of it will make you shout! But those people who are broken, they care about the company mostly. Be kind to one another! Love another. Because it could have been you, it can, be you.
I’m Just Saying…
*I pray everyone has a very blessed Thanksgiving! Filled with love and laughter, and especially life! Enjoy the people in it. It’s people who are yearning for that. Love you, smooches.*