From Surviving to Living
This year started out incredibly hard, pushing me into a season of deep reflection, healing, and spiritual growth in Christ. What felt like pain at the beginning became the very place God used to refine me, break fear, and lead me from surviving to truly living. Through this Christian healing journey, I learned how choosing faith over fear, even while being stretched and matured by Christ Jesus, can unlock freedom, boldness, and purpose.
I found purpose. I found, me.
Not a new version of myself, but truly the woman I had always wanted to be on the inside. Now it’s finally showing up on the outside. I’m so proud of me. Every unwarranted and unwanted feeling doesn’t feel like a lost battle. But a battle already won because I am not trying to be someone I am not. I’m not showing up how other people perceive me to be, but Who God created me to be. And I feel so good about that.
No, it’s not always easy. Sometimes it can even feel impossible. But it’s worth it. It is so worth it. I played a good game of going along to get along for a very long time. I was scared to change. I was worn out and tired. Now, I live in truth of seeing, realizing, and accepting that somethings are just what they are, ya know. We all have our own going through in life. We all have a story to tell. That, going through doesn’t mean that it is a reflection of you or who you’re trying to be. I think some people think that I am hopeless in my going through because that’s what they want life to be for me. Some may wonder how did I come out on the other side of it.
I used to feel so weak, afraid, alone, and incapable because I was so caught up in, what would people think? What will they say about me? How can I trust people enough to even maintain relationships? How can I trust myself?
I never thought I would be:
BOLD. BRAVE. COURAGEOUS.
I no longer live a life ruled by fear. Fear is a death sentence.
Fear keeps you quiet.
Fear keeps you stagnant.
Fear keeps you isolated.
Fear keeps you cycling the same lifestyle over and over again.
Fear keeps you BOUND, emotionally, spiritually, and mentally.
And hear me when I tell you this, I refuse to be bound baby!
Now, I’m not saying I’ve arrived. I still have a long way to go. But I cannot deny the truth: God has brought me so far.
Ya know, it is something Holy and powerful about choosing you in the midst of being matured and refined by Christ Jesus. Yes, it’s uncomfortable. It’s humbling. It is stretching. But it’s also unfathomable in the best way. Because when God refines you, He doesn’t erase you, He reveals you.
And for the first time in a long time…I feel alive.
I’m not weighted down by frustration, confusion, unforgiveness, being quiet, lying, and being two- faced. The freedom of standing firm, sparing not, and speaking up even if everyone else choices to be quiet.
The devil can’t hold my tongue.
I no longer merely exist, trying to make it through the day. Through a holiday. Through another disappointment.
I’m not surviving.
I’m not shrinking.
I’m not hiding.
I’m living.
And that, that right there Chile is freedom.
So with all of that being said…
As I reflect on this journey, I’m learning what it truly means to “be still and know that He is God” (Psalm 46:10). Stillness doesn’t mean weakness, it means trust. It means resting in the truth, ya know. The truth that God is present, sovereign, and working even when the refining feels uncomfortable. In the stillness, fear loses its voice, striving falls away, and faith rises. And it’s here in surrender, in stillness, in trust that I no longer just survive. I live, fully confident that God is who He says He is, and He is faithful to complete the work He started in me.
Now, let us pray.
Lord,
Thank You for meeting us in the middle of our hardest seasons. For every reader who feels weary, afraid, or stuck in survival mode. I ask that You breathe fresh life into their spirit. Quiet the noise. Break grip of fear. Heal what has been wounded Dear Heavenly Father. Teach us how to be still and trust You full, even when we don’t understand the process. Refine us without hardening our hearts. Lead us from surviving to truly living, rooted in truth, bold in faith, and confident in who we are in Christ Jesus. We surrender this journey to You.
In Jesus Mighty and Matchless name. Amen.
Hey Chile!
If this resonated with you, take a moment to pause and reflect. Ask yourself: Where has fear been keeping me in survival mode?
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You are not alone, and this season is not the end of your story.
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